Room 712

Thin spaces and Divine wrestling matches

Last week I was doing some work at my Planet Changer Uganda office located in Seeta, just outside the capital of Kampala. I knew it was going to be a busy week as I was picking up supplies with our Uganda director Moses and his wife Bena.

We needed bunk beds, mattresses, sheets, chairs and a handful of other supplies to get the rooms at the office ready for a team from SVA Church. They will be coming in January to help with water testing, GPS tagging of completed water systems and conduct community health and sanitation surveys.

As there was not a bed for me yet, I stayed at a nearby hotel, this would be my basecamp for accomplishing the long to-do list. While I was looking forward to some alone time with God while savoring some amazing Ugandan tea in the mornings, my experience ran on the twin rails of beauty and struggle.

Behind the door of room 712 I passed into a divine portal where I was about to wrestle everyday for a week.

While no place is truly holier than another, as God is found everywhere and within you, during my prayer, meditation and sleep time I entered into a thin space. A thin space is the Celtic way of expressing that you have experienced the presence of God in such a real and intimate way that the veil between the here-and-now and the presence of God is as thin as translucent paper. Room 712 became for me a Jabbok river of sorts confronting my greater and lesser angels.

In the morning, while I read, prayed and meditated, God’s presence was so tangible my entire body was humming with the energy of creation.

It was amazing…
A place I didn’t want to leave…
Like Peter, I said, “Let’s build three shelters and stay here!” when he experienced the transfiguration of Jesus right before his eyes.

I felt as if I might float away, I even checked once or twice to make sure I was still sitting in my chair! I wondered if I might float right into His throne room on the waves of His love and light.

However, while I slept, we wrestled for control of things I felt I might lose, things I might gain. My mind wouldn’t settle, I felt the weight of my thoughts on my chest like a cement blanket.

Was I jacob at the Jabbok river wrestling with the man who was really God? Would I cling until He blessed me? Who was I, and why did the night spaces become an MMA ring? Was I jacob or Monty or pastor or activist or or or. If I follow His lead and surrender all, who will I become? Will I like me? Will others like me?

While my mind worked to control scenario after scenario crashing through my mind, in the tumultuous silence I finally heard what my soul needed most: “I love you, You are mine.”

And that is exactly what I needed to hear.

LIFE: SNQuotes 6/23/12

Ah life. How should you live it? Why did you receive it? Where is it all going? There are as many questions about life as there are life-forms in the universe! This week I pulled from some fun and diverse sources to find out what others have had to say about life and living.

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Every man dies. Not every man really lives.  ~William Wallace

Don’t go through life, grow through life.  ~Eric Butterworth

Believe that life is worth living and your belief will help create the fact.
~William James

An aim in life is the only fortune worth finding.  ~Robert Louis Stevenson

A man who dares to waste one hour of time has not discovered the value of life.  ~Charles Darwin

A man sooner or later discovers that he is the master-gardener of his soul, the director of his life.  ~James Allen

A baby is God’s opinion that life should go on.  ~Carl Sandburg

For the happiest life, days should be rigorously planned, nights left open to chance.  ~Mignon McLaughlin

Go confidently in the direction of your dreams. Live the life you have imagined.  ~Henry David Thoreau

Here is the test to find whether your mission on Earth is finished: if you’re alive, it isn’t.  ~Richard Bach

I love those who yearn for the impossible.  ~Johann Wolfgang von Goethe

It is not length of life, but depth of life.  ~Ralph Waldo Emerson

Life appears to me too short to be spent in nursing animosity, or registering wrongs.  ~Charlotte Bronte

Life becomes harder for us when we live for others, but it also becomes richer and happier.  ~Albert Schweitzer

Life is a long lesson in humility.  ~James M. Barrie

Life is half spent before we know what it is.  ~George Herbert

Life is not a problem to be solved, but a reality to be experienced.  ~Soren Kierkegaard

Life must be lived as play.   ~Plato

Life ought to be a struggle of desire toward adventures whose nobility will fertilize the soul.  ~Rebecca West

Look, I don’t want to wax philosophic, but I will say that if you’re alive you’ve got to flap your arms and legs, you’ve got to jump around a lot, for life is the very opposite of death, and therefore you must at very least think noisy and colorfully, or you’re not alive.  ~Mel Brooks

My life is my message.  ~Mahatma Gandhi

Our entire life – consists ultimately in accepting ourselves as we are.
~Jean Anouilh

Our life always expresses the result of our dominant thoughts.
~Soren Kierkegaard

Seventy percent of success in life is showing up.   ~Woody Allen

The greatest discovery of my generation is that a human being can alter his life by altering his attitudes.  ~William James

The shoe that fits one person pinches another; there is no recipe for living that suits all cases.  ~Carl Jung

To live a pure unselfish life, one must count nothing as one’s own in the midst of abundance.  ~Buddha

When I stand before God at the end of my life, I would hope that I would not have a single bit of talent left, and could say, ‘I used everything you gave me’.
~Erma Bombeck

You will never be happy if you continue to search for what happiness consists of. You will never live if you are looking for the meaning of life.  ~Albert Camus