A Lament for a Nation Unmoored

There is blood on the ground again.
A young woman in North Carolina,
who fled one war only to be swallowed by another …
stabbed on a train,
her story cut short before she even had a chance to write it.

A congresswoman in Minnesota and her husband,
executed in the quiet of their own home …
a sanctuary turned into a grave.

Children in a school,
their laughter silenced by gunfire.

And a man … Charlie Kirk …
shot while speaking words to a crowd.
And before the echo of the bullet fades,
before we know who or why,
the blame game begins.
Because we already know, don’t we?
We already have our villains picked out.

This is what it means to be unmoored.
To drift.
To lose sight of the shore.
To shout across the waters
instead of rowing toward one another.

We rage.
We divide.
We accuse.
We forget that we belong to each other.

Sit quietly. Breathe. Let the weight of what we know settle in our bones.
We live in a time of sharp edges …
a time when words are weapons before they are bridges.

The story of America was always a grand experiment …
a fragile dream
that people with different names and faces and prayers
could actually live together.

But somewhere along the way
we confused difference with danger.
And now we are drowning in the waters of our own hate.

And into this chaos,
a voice still whispers:

“Do not be overcome by evil,
but overcome evil with good.”
~Romans 12:21

Let that be our lantern in the dark.
Not to deny evil … to name it, to resist it … but to refuse to become what we despise.
To resist the shrug of indifference, the snap of judgment, the hardening of the heart.

Not platitude.
Not sentiment.
Resistance.
Rebellion.
A counter-narrative in a world where anger is currency
and hate is power.

So what do we do with this ache,
this grief,
this fracture?

We weep.
We lament.
We refuse to numb ourselves.

We name the evil.
We sit in the tension.
We cry out to the One who hears the blood of Abel still
crying from the ground.

And we remember …
we do not have to agree to love.
We do not have to understand to honor.
We do not have to win to serve.

So …. we lament

We lament These are not isolated tragedies; they stitch together a pattern. A rising heat of fear. A widening chasm in what we believe, who we are allowed to be, and who we think deserves justice or pity.

We lament that we do not yet know the full stories … the motives, the shadows, the human hearts in them … yet we so quickly assign them to “other,” to “them.”
We lose integrity in our haste.

We lament that civility is ever more fragile; trust ever more scarce.
That the presence of another … different in speech, in belief, in background … feels like threat. That compassion is increasingly viewed as weakness.

May we live as people who follow the Romans’ call … resisting evil, but not becoming evil; loving even when angry; speaking truth even when tempted by blame.

May our nation, which is unmoored, find its anchor again: justice, mercy, peace.
May our neighbors be recognized … not as enemies to defeat, but as souls to see.

O God … anchor us.
O Christ … heal us.
O Spirit … breathe civility, compassion, and courage
back into our weary lungs.

Until we learn again
that the only way forward
is to be overcome not by rage,
but by good.

Amen.

When One Hurts…We All Hurt…#Charleston

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I have just woke up after returning from a trip traversing Uganda. While there, I caught a breaking news report concerning the shootings at Emanuel AME Church in Charleston South Carolina. It was a depressing and disturbing feeling watching the news report about more Black Americans being shot in the U.S.

My heart broke. “This is too much.”

As an obvious white American in a room of Ugandans, I thought,  “I wonder if he is a racist too?”

As of this moment I have not had to endure all the spin from the Left and the Right as you have. I have not had to wade through the polarizing news reports. It has been apparent that racism and a hatred of black people was the root of the problem.

I have prayed; repented for our nation; confessed my own “isms.” I have struggled with the moral temperature of our nation; I have tried to enter the pain of my African-American brothers and sisters in Christ in a very insufficient way as I will never fully understand the pain they experience.

As a follower of Jesus, I am spiritually and soul-ularly connected to every other follower of Jesus regardless of race, gender, color of skin, ideology, social status etc.

As a follower of Jesus, I am called to stand in the gap for my brothers and sisters who are hurting, suffering, and have lost their voice.

As a follower of Jesus, I -do- feel the pain and enter into the journey of suffering with those who suffer.

Paul the Apostle said is this way:

“If one part suffers, every part suffers with it; if one part is honored, every part rejoices with it.” 1 Corinthians 12:26

So I weep those who weep…I grieve with those who grieve…I cry with those who cry.

But, as a follower of Christ I also denounce the violence in our country that continues to be directed towards the Black community. I am amazed that we are actually arguing  whether or not the Confederate flag (a symbol of racism) should be allowed to fly. I wonder (not really) if Germany would argue similarly about reviving the Nazi Swastika; I’m sure (or I would hope) it would be rejected out of hand.

Until we recognize and deal with our national racism the violence will continue.

The lives represented by the list of victims matters:

Rev. Daniel Simmons Sr., 74
Rev. Clementa Pinckney, 41
Rev. Sharonda Singleton, 45
Rev. DePayne Doctor, 49
Sharonda Singleton, 45
Myra Thompson, 59
Tywanza Sanders, 26
Ethel Lance, 70
Cynthia Hurd, 54
Susie Jackson, 87 

The problem with lists and statistics is that they don’t cry. Each name represents a significant larger story. Each person matters. Each life was intended by God.

If you are a white Christian in the U.S you need to begin reading the stories and articles that are pouring out from the black community. Enter into their pain and feel their faith. It is no longer sufficient to say, “Well I didn’t cause this.” or “Things are way better than they used to be.” or “It’s not my problem.”

While this generation may not have caused the problem, we have inherited it and are called to do something about any and all injustice that we encounter.

While things are better than they once were, there are still miles to go until we reach true equality.

And this is all our problem…

It is time to get off the bench and into the game.

It is time to stand up against any and all forms of violence.

It is time to stand in solidarity with the Black community.

It is time to put people first above ideologies.

Choosing to disengage from the reality of violence in our midst is to join the side of the violence…no one is neutral when it comes to events that affect our nation.

Charleston, my heart and prayers are with you. May the grace and peace of God saturate you hearts and community.

 

 

My Anchor Holds

1 Dead, 3 Injured After Shooting At Seattle Pacific University

I am still processing… I remain mostly wordless, save the moments of anger, sadness, and bewilderment. My wife is in a doctoral program at SPU, and my two incredible kids along with a number of other young adults from my church are undergrads at the University. There are also  some faculty and staff from SPU who attend the church I pastor. As I write, my heart is still numb and stunned in light of the tragic shooting event that happened on the SPU campus yesterday.

Tragedy and crisis reveal the foundation and reality of who we truly are. When we are squeezed through crisis, what comes out of us is what is inside of us. In other words, circumstances reveal our true character, not the exceptions to our character. How you respond reveals who you are.

The community of students, staff, and faculty at SPU are revealing that they are forming deeply into the image of Christ…

In the wake of this tragedy I see:

Courage…
Love…
Forgiveness…
Community…
Questions…
Mystery…
Emotional honesty…
Relational vulnerability…

spuIn the worst of situations, the SPU community is not pontificating a political stump speech exploiting someones pain for their platform, nor are they acting in a narcissistic frenzied fashion grabbing social media and air time. No, they are revealing that they have an anchor that is forming deep within their individual and collective soul that holds steady, yet not without frailty, in the storm.

As I was trying to connect with my kids hoping and praying that they were okay, along with the others I know there, my heart began to spontaneously sing a great hymn within the quiet corridors of my mind…

When darkness seems to hide His face,
I rest on His unchanging grace.
In every high and stormy gale,
My anchor holds within the veil.

On Christ the Solid Rock I Stand
All other ground is sinking sand,
All other ground is sinking sand.

Darkness only seems to hide His (God’s) face…

God walks amongst the empty shotgun shells…

spu-spd6His Spirit is moving through the corridors of mind and dorm…

The wounds of Christ the only balm to heal such senseless evil…

At SPU, the anchor holds because it is tethered to something beyond the best we can offer on our own. The anchor is Christ Himself who alone understands the pain of a family asking “Why our boy?” “Why us?” 

I cannot imagine the pain this family is in…so I pray their anchor holds.

I cannot fathom the emotional gutting they are experiencing…so I pray their anchor holds.

I know life is now forever different for them…so I pray their anchor holds.

paul leeHis name is Paul Lee…he matters…his family matters…his friends matter…Paul’s journey on this side of eternity is over, but now he walks in pastures of grace with Christ, but for those who love him, the journey here will be one of sacred wounds…so I pray for this family, “may Christ be your anchor… pushing back the  darkness… and bathing you in healing grace.”

I am proud that the SPU community has chosen to refrain from pithy Christian clichés’, which minimize the pain, and instead, choose to wrestle with the uneasiness of the evil that has found a crack in which to enter their world.

I wondered if my kids would want to come home. At first they said yes, then I was as proud as a pastor dad could be when I heard, “No, I think I’ll stay here to be around to talk with people who need someone.” So instead, Amy and I will go in to visit them, it’s more for my soul than theirs. They are being light and part of their community in the right way.

Life is a gift..
Life is fragile…
Life is fleeting…

Jesus said, “Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.” (Matthew 6:34) Life is the gift of the present moment, and that truly is all we have. The only way I know how to live well in the moment is to stay anchored to Christ. Jesus knows that when we are continually future-tripping we forget to hold, kiss, and say I love you to the ones that matter most to us.

But it is difficult to be in the moment when the moment is flooded with pain…

We want to escape…

We want to blame…

We want answers…

We want vengeance…

We want to medicate…

But what the SPU community is modeling right now is the choice to simply “Be” in the painful moment.

Silently, wordlessly, quizzically, and honestly. They are grieving well, and as a result, the peace of Christ is pushing back the darkness.

 

Their anchor holds…

 

My hat is off to Dr, Martin, the President of SPU, and the faculty, staff, and students.

You make me proud to be a Christ-follower  as your response in the spotlight of pain shines the light of Jesus in the darkness of the moment.

Your anchor holds, safe within the veil.

As for me, I can’t wait to hug my kids.