She Stayed: John 20:1-18

It was still dark.
Early.
Too early for clarity.
Too early for answers.
But she went anyway.

Because grief doesn’t care about sunrise.
And love doesn’t wait for convenience.

So Mary showed up.

No plan.
No strategy.
Just tears.
And questions.

She sees the stone rolled away,
Runs, tells the others.
Peter and John race back,
Peer in,
See linen,
Then leave.

But she stays.

Let that settle in.

She stays.
While the men run off to figure it out,
Mary lingers in the mystery.
In the loss.
In the not-knowing.

Sometimes it’s the staying that becomes the sacred.

She weeps.
And then…two angels.
But even they don’t wow her.
She’s not looking for angels.
She’s looking for Jesus.

And then…

A gardener?

No.
Not a gardener.
Not really.

He says her name.

Not a sermon.
Not a rebuke.
Not a theology lesson.

Just… “Mary.”

And suddenly,
Resurrection is personal.

She had seen Him die.
Heard the last breath.
Watched the burial.

And yet,
There He is.
Breathing.
Standing.
Speaking.

Alive.

And what’s the first thing He does?

He sends her.

Not Peter.
Not John.
Not the inner circle.

Mary.

The weeping woman in the garden.
The one with a past.
The one with the story no one expected.

She becomes the first preacher of the resurrection.

She is apostle to the apostles.

Because Jesus rewrites the script.

And still does.

He comes in the weeping.
In the waiting.
In the mistaken identities.
In the dark.

He comes when the grief is thick
and the tomb looks final.

He comes with your name on His lips.

So today…

Stay.
Wait.
Weep if you must.
But listen.

He’s calling your name.

And when you hear it,
Don’t hold on too tightly to how things were.
He’s doing something new.

Now go.
Tell them what you’ve seen.

Still Breathing: John 20:20-29

They had locked the doors.
For fear.
For shame.
For wondering if the whole thing was over.

All the promises.
All the miracles.
All the momentum.
Gone.

And then…
Jesus comes through the locked door.

Not past the lock.
Not around the lock.
Through it.

Like grace always does.

And what does He say?

“Peace be with you.”

Not, “Where were you?”
Not, “Why did you run?”
Not, “I told you so.”

Just… Peace.

Because the resurrected Christ doesn’t come to rub your failure in your face.
He comes to breathe life back into your lungs.
To restore.
To recommission.
To rehumanize the weary disciple.

Then He shows them the scars.

Not to horrify them.
But to heal them.

Scars are what resurrection looks like on skin.
Proof that death did its worst…
But love had the last word.

He breathes on them.
Just like God did in Genesis.
Just like He’s doing now.
To you.
To your calling.
To your people.

You might feel like your ministry is behind locked doors.
Like your prayers are hitting ceilings.
Like resurrection is something that only happens in other churches, other pastors, other places.

But Jesus isn’t stopped by fear, or failure, or fatigue.
He still walks through walls.
He still breathes on broken leaders.
He still sends out wounded disciples.

And He still says:
“As the Father has sent me, I am sending you.”

You.

Not a perfect version of you.
Not a more spiritual, more rested, more certain version of you.

Just… you.

Your scars and all.

So, inhale deeply today.

You’re not alone.
You’re not disqualified.
You’re not done.

He’s still breathing.
And so are you.

Shock Me With Terrible Goodness

A Good Friday Meditation…

Shock Me with Terrible Goodness

Holy One,
Shock and save me with the terrible goodness of this Friday,
And drive me deep into my longing for your kingdom
Until I seek it first-
Yet not first for myself,
But for the hungry
And the sick
And the poor of your children,
For prisoners of conscience around the world,
For those I have wasted
With my racism
And sexism
And ageism
And nationalism
And religionism,
For those around this mother earth and in this city
Who, this Friday, know far more of terror than of goodness;
That, in my seeking first the kingdom,
For them as well as for myself,
All these things may be mine as well:
Things like a coat and courage
And something like comfort,
A few lilies in the field,
The sight of birds soaring on the wind,
A song in the night,
And gladness of heart,
The sense of your presence
And the realization of your promise
That nothing in life or death
Will be able to separate me or those I love,
From you love
In the crucified one who is our Lord,
And in whose name and Spirit I pray.

by Ted Loder – Guerrillas of Grace

Sunday Night Quotes 4/8/2012- Easter

Since today is Easter, here are some Easter quotes to fill your thoughts and soul.

~Monty

Our Lord has written the promise of the resurrection, not in books alone, but in every leaf in spring-time.  ~Martin Luther

There is not room for Death,
Nor atom that his might could render void:
Thou – Thou art Being and Breath,
And what Thou art may never be destroyed.  ~Emily Bronte

We live and die; Christ died and lived!  ~John Stott

Do not abandon yourselves to despair. We are the Easter people and hallelujah is our song.  ~Pope John Paul II

You give but little when you give of your possessions. It is when you give of yourself that you truly give.   ~Kahlil Gibran

This is the Easter message, that awakening is possible, to the goodness of God, the sacredness of human life, the sisterhood and brotherhood of all.  ~Anne Lamott

Before the Resurrection of Christ, the Holy Spirit came upon individuals only on certain occasions for special tasks. But now, after the Resurrection, Christ through the Holy Spirit dwells in the heart of every believer to give us supernatural power in living our daily lives.   ~Rev. Billy Graham

Two thousand years ago, in the Middle East, an event occurred that permanently changed the world. Because of that event, history was split. Every time you write a date, you’re using the Resurrection of Jesus Christ as the focal point.   ~Rick Warren

The resurrection gives my life meaning and direction and the opportunity to start over
no matter what my circumstances.   ~Robert Flatt

The tomb of Christ is famous because of what it DOES NOT CONTAIN.”   ~Sam Morris

The benefits [of the resurrection] are innumerable. To list a few:
Our illnesses don’t seem  nearly so final;
Our fears fade and lose their grip;
Our grief over those who have gone on is diminished;
Our desires to press on in spite of the obstacles is rejuvenated…
Our identity as Christians is strengthened as we stand in the lengthening shadows of saints
down through the centuries, who have always answered back in antiphonal voice: ‘He is risen, indeed!   ~Charles Swindoll