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Two Years. The Same Road. The Gift of Being Here.

Last night I found myself driving from Camas to Walla Walla, late into the evening, to drop off our election ballots.

I’ve made that drive countless times.

But this one was different.

Because two years ago, almost to the day, I made that same drive.

Same road. Same Columbia Gorge. Same late night drive darkness.

Only that night, something was wrong and I didn’t really know it.

I had worked all day and wasn’t feeling the best. As the evening went on, things got worse. I remember thinking it might be stress. Maybe anxiety. Perhaps a panic attack, although I’d never had one before.

Just a couple of months earlier, I had returned from sabbatical, having walked more than 500 miles across Spain on the Camino de Santiago.

I had walked across a country.

And now I was struggling to make it through a night.

Funny how life works, right?

I spent much of that night trying to breathe my way through the pain. By morning, Amy knew something wasn’t right and took me to the emergency room.

And then everything happened fast.

A heart attack. A medical emergency. A Life Flight to Richland. Four stents placed in my heart.

And suddenly, the life I had been so busy living looked a little different.

Not because everything changed.

But because I had been reminded how quickly everything can change.

So last night, as I drove that familiar stretch of highway, I found myself reflecting.

No pain this time.

Just gratitude.

For Amy. For the life we’ve shared and the years we’ve been given.

For my children. For my grandkids, whose laughter, smiles, and little voices have a way of reminding me what life is really about.

For friends.

For the extraordinary privilege of walking alongside people, leading and serving, sharing in their joys and sorrows.

And for the simple gift of being here.

Breathing.

Living.

Loving.

I’ve been thinking lately about how much of life we spend trying to get somewhere. Accomplish something. Build something. Fix something.

And those things aren’t necessarily bad.

But somewhere along the way, we can miss the wonder of simply being alive.

The ordinary moments that aren’t really ordinary at all.

A conversation with someone you love.

A grandchild reaching for your hand.

A quiet evening with your wife.

A drive along the Columbia River.

Another sunrise.

Another chance to begin again.

Two years ago, I was reminded that life is fragile.

Two years later, I’m still discovering that life is also astonishingly beautiful.

And that’s part of what it means to grow older. Not simply accumulating years, experiences, or accomplishments, but becoming more awake to the life we’re actually living.

More present.

More grateful.

More generous.

More willing to let go of things that don’t really matter.

And above all, more capable of love.

Because in the end, isn’t that what all of this is about?

Learning to love God, others, and this beautiful world a little more deeply.

I don’t know how many more trips along that road I’ll get to make.

None of us do.

But I do know this.

I’m not the same man who drove that road two years ago.

And I hope two years from now, I’ll be able to say the same thing.

Not because I’ve accomplished more.

But because I’ve learned to love more.

Still here. Still becoming. Still grateful.

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The Wind Still Blows

There are moments in Scripture that feel less like history
and more like a mirror.

Pentecost is one of them.

Not because it’s safe.
Not because it’s polished.
But because it’s disruptive.

The followers of Jesus are huddled in an upper room.
Fearful. Confused. Waiting.

Jesus had ascended.
Rome was still Rome.
The religious machine was still grinding people into dust.
The empire still flexed its power.
And the disciples?
They had no buildings.
No influence.
No platform.
No strategy deck.

Just a promise.

And then it happened.

A violent rushing wind.
Fire resting on ordinary people.
Languages exploding out of Galilean mouths.

The Spirit of God did not fall on the temple system.
The Spirit fell on people.

Why does that matter?

Because humanity has always wanted to build towers.
God keeps building people.

We build institutions.
God breathes on sons and daughters.

We crave control.
God sends wind.

And wind is dangerous because you cannot manage it.

You can organize around it.
You can write books about it.
You can create denominations that once carried it.
But you cannot possess it.

The modern church often feels more like a corporation protecting assets than a Spirit-filled movement disrupting darkness.

We have become incredibly skilled at production value while often remaining terrified of holy fire.

We know how to gather crowds.
But do we know how to wait?
Do we know how to repent?
Do we know how to tremble again?

Because Pentecost was not merely a prayer meeting with emotional music in the background.

It was a collision.

Heaven invading earth.
God declaring that His Spirit would no longer be reserved for prophets, priests, kings, or elites.

Everybody gets to play now.

The old boundaries shattered.

Young men dreaming.
Old men seeing visions.
Women prophesying.
Fishermen preaching with authority.
Outcasts becoming carriers of divine presence.

Pentecost was the undoing of spiritual hierarchy.

And maybe that’s part of why we still struggle with it.

Because systems built on control are threatened by Spirit-filled people who no longer need permission to burn.

The early church did not change the world because they were culturally accepted.

They changed the world because they became impossible to silence.

The Spirit gave them a courage empire could not intimidate.

And this is where Pentecost crashes directly into our current cultural moment.

We are living in an age drowning in noise but starving for transcendence.

People are exhausted.

Endless outrage.
Algorithm-driven identity formation.
Political tribalism masquerading as righteousness.
Performative spirituality.
Curated authenticity.

We have more information than any civilization in history and yet somehow feel more spiritually disoriented than ever.

The culture keeps promising liberation while producing anxiety.

And into that confusion, the church often responds with one of two errors:

Either we retreat in fear…
or we mimic the culture so completely that we lose our distinctiveness altogether.

But Pentecost offers another way.

Not retreat.
Not imitation.

Transformation.

The Spirit does not empower the church to win culture wars.
The Spirit empowers the church to become a prophetic alternative society.

A people who actually look like Jesus.

A people whose lives confront greed without becoming self-righteous.
Who confront injustice without losing tenderness.
Who speak truth without becoming cruel.
Who refuse both compromise and hatred.

That kind of church terrifies darkness.

And if we are honest, it often terrifies religious people too.

Because fire is hard to predict.

You cannot fully systematize revival.

You cannot spreadsheet awakening.

The Spirit tends to move through hungry people more than polished people.

Which may explain why some of the most alive movements of God today are not emerging from celebrity stages but from hidden prayer gatherings, immigrant churches, recovering addicts, rural pastors, persecuted believers, and exhausted leaders who finally realized they cannot sustain ministry without the actual presence of God.

Maybe Pentecost is not a story about what happened.

Maybe it is a question.

What happens when ordinary people become fully yielded to the Spirit of God again?

What happens when the church stops obsessing over image management and starts pursuing holiness again?

What happens when believers become less interested in being culturally impressive and more interested in carrying divine presence?

Acts 2 tells us thousands were added to the church.

But that was never the greatest miracle.

The greatest miracle was this:

Cowards became courageous.
Consumers became missionaries.
Divided people became family.
Ordinary people became burning ones.

And maybe that is what the Spirit still wants to do.

Not simply grow churches.
Not merely improve attendance.
Not just create better content.

But ignite people.

The wind still blows.

The question is whether we have become too controlled, too distracted, too cynical, or too comfortable to open the windows again.

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The Slow Violence of Division

Reflecting on Proverbs 6:16-19

There are things that fracture the soul.
Things that unravel a people from the inside out.
Not all at once.
Usually slowly. Quietly. Like rot beneath the floorboards of a house that still looks beautiful from the street.

And Proverbs says God hates these things.

Not because God is angry in the fragile, explosive way humans are angry.
Not because God is easily offended.
But because God sees what these things do to people.
To families.
To communities.
To the human heart.

So…what are these things?

“Haughty eyes…”

That posture where a person begins to stand above others instead of beside them.
The subtle intoxication of superiority.
The need to be right. To win. To be seen as more enlightened, more spiritual, more important.Pride rarely enters the room announcing itself.

It usually arrives dressed as certainty.

And once pride takes root, people stop listening.
They stop learning.
They stop loving.

“A lying tongue…”

Because language creates worlds.
Every word spoken builds something.
Trust or suspicion.
Healing or division.
Life or death.

A lie is never just a false statement.
It’s an assault on reality itself.
It bends the fabric of trust that holds human relationships together.
And eventually… people no longer know what is real.

Or who is safe.

“Hands that shed innocent blood…”

Violence is not only physical.
There are ways we crucify people without ever touching them.

A rumor.
A betrayal.
A public humiliation.
A character assassination disguised as discernment.

There are bloodless forms of murder we baptize in religious language.

“A heart that devises wicked plans…”

Notice the progression.
This isn’t accidental brokenness.
This is cultivated darkness.

A heart rehearsing harm.
Strategizing destruction.
Feeding resentment until it becomes identity.

We become what we continually contemplate.

“Feet that hurry to run to evil…”

Some people sprint toward chaos.
They move fast toward outrage.
Fast toward offense.
Fast toward gossip.
Fast toward division.

Because evil has a gravitational pull when the soul has not learned stillness.
And then the proverb lands on the final line like a hammer:

“One who sows discord in a family.”

Interesting, isn’t it?
Of all the sins listed, the culmination is division.

Because the enemy’s oldest strategy has never changed:
separate people from God,
and then separate people from each other.

Divide marriages.
Divide churches.
Divide friends.
Divide brothers and sisters.

If you can fracture trust, you can fracture a people.
And this is why unity is so sacred in Scripture.

Not uniformity.
Not pretending.
Not silence.

But the hard, holy work of remaining connected in truth and love.
Because every gathering of humans moves in one of two directions:
toward communion,
or toward fragmentation.

Every conversation.
Every email.
Every whispered comment after the meeting.
Every social media post.
Every private resentment we nurture instead of heal.

We are always either sewing garments of peace…or sowing seeds of division.

And maybe the deepest invitation of Proverbs 6 is not merely to avoid evil, but to become the kind of people who heal what evil fractures.

People whose eyes are humble.
Whose tongues tell truth.
Whose hands protect life.
Whose hearts imagine goodness.
Whose feet run toward mercy.
Whose presence reconciles rather than divides.

Because this is the way of Jesus.

The One who stepped into a world addicted to accusation and violence…
and refused to return evil for evil.
The One who shed His own blood rather than demand ours.The One who came not to scatter humanity further…but to gather us home.

I sense the question sitting underneath Proverbs 6:16-19 is not simply:

“What sins should I avoid?”
But:
“What kind of presence am I becoming in the world?”

Because every one of us walks into rooms carrying something.
Some people carry anxiety.
Some carry suspicion.
Some carry ego.
Some carry hidden violence.

And when they enter a room, the temperature changes.
People brace themselves.
Armor goes up.
Trust leaks out of the walls.

But then there are other people.

People who walk into chaos and somehow peace arrives with them.
People who tell the truth without needing to wound.
People who are humble enough to listen.
People who absorb offense instead of multiplying it.
People who refuse the addiction of outrage.
People who reconcile.
People who heal.

And you know these people when you meet them.
Because around them, your soul exhales.

This is the invitation of Jesus.
Not merely behavior modification.
Not simply avoiding bad things.

But becoming the kind of human who reflects the wholeness of God back into a fractured world.
A person incapable of sowing discord because Christ has dealt with the discord within them.

Because the truth is:

…we cannot heal division outside us while nurturing division inside us.

And maybe this is why the Spirit spends so much time working beneath the surface.

In motives.
In wounds.
In ego.
In resentment.
In the secret need to be vindicated.

Because long before division appears in public…

it was first rehearsed in private.

And the Kingdom of God comes differently than the kingdoms of this world.
The kingdoms of this world survive by accusation.
By scapegoating.
By fear.
By power.
By making enemies.

But the Kingdom of God advances through peacemakers.
Truth tellers.
Foot washers.
Enemy lovers.
Bridge builders.

The world teaches us how to win arguments.
Jesus teaches us how to heal people.

And perhaps that is why Proverbs says God hates these things.

Because God is fiercely protective of communion.
Of shalom.
Of the sacred thread that binds humans together in love.
God hates whatever destroys His beloved.

So today the invitation is simple:

Pay attention to what you are planting.
Because every thought becomes a seed.
Every word becomes a seed.
Every conversation becomes a seed.
Every post.
Every whisper.
Every grievance left unchecked.

Seeds.

And eventually, the field of your life becomes the harvest of what you planted there.
So plant peace.
Plant truth.
Plant mercy.
Plant humility.
Plant reconciliation.

Become the kind of person who makes it harder for hell to spread.
Become the kind of presence that reminds people what God is like.

Because in a world tearing itself apart…that may be one of the holiest acts left.

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When Stones Fall

A Reflection on Matthew 24 and the end of certainty

The disciples were staring at the stones.

Massive stones. Temple stones. The kind of stones people build their certainty on.

For centuries this temple had stood as the center of Israel’s world…the place where heaven touched earth. It felt immovable. Permanent. Sacred.

And then Jesus says something that must have stopped them cold:

“Not one stone here will be left on another.”

Imagine hearing that.

Everything you trusted… everything that felt stable… everything that seemed untouchable.

Gone.

The disciples immediately ask the question we all ask when the ground starts shaking:

When will this happen?

But instead of giving them a timeline, Jesus gives them something far more important.

A way to live when the world begins to tremble.

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Jesus is leaving the temple.

The disciples are still looking back.

You can almost see them pointing.

“Look at these stones.”
Look at the scale of them.
The beauty of them.
The permanence of them.

Herod’s temple was staggering. Blocks of limestone weighing dozens of tons. Walls that seemed immovable. A structure meant to signal something eternal.

God lives here.

At least that’s what people thought.

Jesus looks at the same stones and says something unsettling.

“Not one stone will be left on another.”

It sounds impossible.
Blasphemous even.

But Jesus has a habit of saying things that dismantle what people think can never be dismantled.

The disciples feel the ground shift under their feet.

So they ask the question humans always ask when something stable begins to shake:

When?

How will we know?

What are the signs?

We want certainty.

We want a chart.
A timeline.
A code to crack the future.

But Jesus doesn’t give them a timeline.

He gives them a warning.

“Watch out that no one deceives you.”

Which is fascinating.

Because when the world starts shaking, the first thing people reach for is certainty.

And certainty is exactly what false prophets sell.

I know what this means.

I know the timeline.

I know who the enemy is.

Jesus says:
Be careful.
Deception grows best in anxious times.

Deception grows best in anxious times.

Then he names what the world will look like.

Wars.

Rumors of wars.

Nations rising against nations.

Famines.

Earthquakes.

You read that list and it sounds like the evening news.

But Jesus says something strange.

“These are the beginning of birth pains.”

Birth pains.

Not death pains.

Birth pains.

Which means the chaos of history isn’t necessarily the collapse of God’s plan.

Sometimes it’s the labor of something new being born.

God has always worked this way.

Creation itself began with chaos and darkness.

Then God spoke.

And light broke through.

But Jesus says the real danger isn’t earthquakes.

It’s something much quieter.

“Because of the increase of wickedness, the love of most will grow cold.”

Not weaker.

Cold.

The temperature of the human heart begins to drop.

People betray each other.
Communities fracture.
Faith becomes tribal.

And love…real love…becomes rare.

This might be the most haunting line in the entire chapter.

Because the final battle of history may not be between good and evil armies.

It may be a battle over the human heart.

Will it stay warm?

Then Jesus says something remarkable.

“This gospel of the kingdom will be preached in the whole world.”

Which means while empires rage…

While wars unfold…

While temples fall…

The kingdom keeps moving.

Quietly.

Patiently.

Across languages.
Across borders.
Across cultures.

The kingdom of God has never depended on a building.

Or a political movement.

Or a religious system.

It moves through people.

People who refuse to let their love grow cold.

The disciples still want signs.

So Jesus gives them images.

Lightning flashing across the sky.

The sun darkened.

The heavens shaking.

This is prophetic language.

Cosmic language.

It’s the Bible’s way of saying:

When God moves, the whole universe notices.

No secret return.

No hidden appearance.

When the Son of Man comes, creation itself will respond.

You won’t need someone on YouTube explaining it.

You’ll know.

Then Jesus shifts.

He moves from cosmic imagery to something almost mundane.

A fig tree.

“When the leaves appear, you know summer is near.”

You can’t control the seasons.

You can only recognize them.

And then comes one of the most humbling sentences Jesus ever speaks.

“No one knows the day or hour.”

Not the angels.

Not even the Son.

Only the Father.

Which should make every confident prophecy teacher pause for a moment.

If Jesus himself says the timeline is hidden…

Maybe… the point was never about predicting it.

Maybe the point was about how we live while we wait.

Jesus says it will be like the days of Noah.

People eating.

Drinking.

Getting married.

Life just moving along.

And suddenly the world changes.

God’s interruptions rarely come with a countdown clock.

They come in the middle of ordinary life.

Grinding grain.

Working fields.

Sharing meals.

Which is why Jesus says:

“Keep watch.”

But not the kind of watching where you stare at the sky.

The kind of watching where you live awake.

Then he tells a story.

A servant placed in charge of a household.

His job?

Feed the others.

Care for the house.

Be faithful while the master is away.

The master doesn’t return and ask,

“Did you predict the date of my arrival?”

He asks,

“Were you faithful?”

History tells us Jesus’ first prediction came true.

Forty years later the Romans destroyed the temple.

Stone by stone.

Just like he said.

Which means the disciples eventually realized something profound.

God was never contained in those stones.

And maybe that’s the deeper point of Matthew 24.

Everything humans build and call permanent eventually falls.

Empires.

Institutions.

Even temples.

But the kingdom of God keeps moving.

Quietly.

Relentlessly.

Through people whose love refuses to grow cold.

So maybe the question Matthew 24 leaves us with isn’t:

When will the end come?

Maybe the question is:

When the stones fall…

Will your love still be warm?

Will you still be feeding the household?

Will you still be awake?

Because one day the sky will split open.

And the Son of Man will come like lightning.

Until then…

The faithful servant just keeps loving.

Keeps serving.

Keeps watching.

And keeps the fire of the kingdom burning in a cold world.

A Question for Reflection

Jesus warned that in turbulent times “the love of most will grow cold.”

Where do you see that happening today?

And more importantly:

What practices help keep your love warm in a world that is growing colder?